Prologue

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

     This is the prologue to my novel Mind Runners that I'm writing for Nano. Enjoy and please comment. :)

Prologue


    The heartbroken sobs of an almost-mother soaked through the steel passages of the hospital. Dr. Fields sat in his office, his ears once again annoyed by the sound he heard nearly every hour. They were pathetic, these women sniveling over something that was never theirs to begin with. His disgust at them built up behind his eyes, shading the pupils’ color to a discomforting black. These women were utterly devastated and yet the procedure was so simple, he mocked. He had been there, so many times. A woman came in, needing a doctor for the delivery. He would, as always, have to take an examination of the child and then tell the mother of the alleged disease. So easily convinced their child would die without an immediate operation, the women were always eager to proceed with any recommended treatment. Then, it was just a matter of removing the child, a quick cut and snip.
     It was rather fascinating, Dr. Fields thought, to watch how each mother handled the news of the death of her child. Some were strong and held their face calm as they were fed the information, but they all broke. Eventually, they would all break down. He’d been known to stand outside the closed door of the operating room and wait for the sounds of tears.
     It was always an annoyance to have to show the body of the child to the mother. Why the women didn’t simply leave, he would never understand. They all insisted to be shown their child. They were all shown a child: a mock-up of a child, a silicon fabrication placed safely behind a wall of glass so the truth was never discovered. It was the created disease that required the glass. No, the women were never allowed to hold their children. But, this mattered nothing to him. He needed the children. The women provided the children, and he in turn provided them with a reason to live without the child they had carried in their womb. He needed nothing else to suffice his conscious. It was enough.
     The clack of footsteps disturbed Dr. Fields reverie, and a young man dressed in a gray coat appeared at the open door.
     “Excuse me, Dr. Fields.”
     Dr. Fields eyes flicked to the man, without turning his head.
     “The operation was successful, and the contributor has been informed. The next embryo has already been prepped for enhancement.”
     A few minutes later, Dr. Fields stood in front of an operating table. Before him lay the pasty, gurgling newborn. His tiny hands were closed into precious fists as he wriggled on the table, his white skin painfully contrasting to the inhuman silver board on which he lay. Dr. Fields picked up a syringe and stuck it into a vile. Slowly, the suction pulled up a thick, mercury colored liquid. Without ceremony, he turned, placed a hand on the infant’s chest to keep him still, and slid the needle into the child’s forehead.
     A cry fit to strangle the heart rang through the room as the baby lashed out, but the vice of the doctor kept him in place until every drop of serum had been pumped into the helpless infant.   

Through the Telescope of a Sunday School Lesson

      Hello all. I'm taking a little time out of my day to write this post. I haven't written anything here in a long time, and that's for several reasons. One, I've been busy (pretty much a given). Two, NANO! Three, if I do get free time from writing my novel and school, I usually have other things to waste my time with than blogging. Haha!
     However, I have to post SOMETHING to keep you guys up to date. ;) Let's recap some things. By the way, this is probably going to be a long post.... :D

     This week has been really good. I had a fabulous Sunday school class about giving thanks. My leader (Jeremy) talked about a timeline. It looked something like this:
-----------------/----------------/-----------------/-----------------/---------------/-----------------
   Extraordinarily         Hard           Ordinary        Good       Extraordinarily
     Hard Times            Times            Times           Times       Good Times

    Then, Jeremy dissected what fell into these categories and how much (percentage) time of our life (for the most part) is spent around the *actual* activity. Repercussions of an event could last for years, but we just looked at the actual event.                                              
1% E.H.T. = death, divorce
5% H.T. = financial trouble, failing a class (or being a failure at life--one guy suggested--haha!)
O.T. =  (he left this one blank)
7% G. T. = having money, good grades
1% E.G.T. = marriage, birth

     Jeremy asked us, how much time does that then leave us in the last slot? Answer? 86%
Most humans will spend 86% (give or take) of their lives in a regular state of living. How does that figure into our thankfulness? I shall explain.
     When we are in good times, we're thankful and when we're in extraordinarily good times, we're thankful--maybe not even as thankful as we should be. Now, when in extraordinary hard or regular hard times, we may not feel like being thankful, but we as Christians know we are supposed to be thankful. So, at least we try to be thankful. What about in the ordinary times? What about those days where you get out of bed, take a shower, get dressed and go about your day. You might see some friends; you might talk to family. You'll probably use your car, too. You'll definitely eat and use the bathroom; you'll most likely use your dishwasher, sit on a chair, and turn the lights on, too. Hopefully, you'll open your Bible as well.
     ...See where I'm going with this?
     Are we truly thankful in those "ordinary times?" Those days that take up 86% of the time God has given us on Earth? Are we thankful for that clock that tells us what time it is so we don't have to be running outside every five minutes to look at where the sun is in the sky? Are we thankful for the chair we sit in everyday?
Are we really thankful for the underwear we're wearing? And I mean, REALLY thankful? Have you thanked God for your underwear lately? I'm being totally serious right now. Stop laughing. Haha! :D
     I look at my own life and find millions of things I not only take for granted hourly but don't even *think* to give thanks for. Case in point, the underwear example. I confess I have not given thanks for my underwear ever in my life. But in all seriousness, what I take for granted and am not consciously giving thanks for EVERY DAY: my house, the cars(!) that get us places before tomorrow, a house full of food, electricity, a loving family that loves me and parents that are still married after 32 years, college, and my salvation.
     Of course, I could make a list a mile long with things like that, but the one that hit me the most as Jeremy was talking, was school. I think I've told *everyone* that I have 4 tests this week, 1 for each class I'm taking. I've been rather complaining about it too, thinking of "how hard" it's going to be. After Sunday school? The Lord had changed my entire attitude. Guys, I *get* to go to school. I'm allowed by God, my parents, and the government to go to college and better my education. I *get* to go to school. How many can say that? Not as many as you'd like to think.
     But, Jeremy's lesson wasn't over with simply pointing out how we have to be consciously thankful every day even in those "ordinary times." He also talked about not being thankful. He pointed out so many sins that stem from not being thankful. Pride, selfishness, meanness, a general bad attitude, and even a "ho-hum" attitude. If you're focused on being thankful to God for the talents he's given to you, where is there room for pride? If you're focused on being thankful to God for all the blessings he's bestowed to you, how can you be selfish? If you're completely immersed in being thankful to God for every day, every person, and every thing in your life, then how are you able to walk around with a bad attitude? How can you help but have a grin on your face? Look how much He's blessed you with? Look how much God loves you!

     Whew. Okay. I've wanted to get that out since Sunday, and I feel better having written it. Anyway, that whole thing was the back story to why this week (and only on Wednesday) has been really good. I keep thinking about the Sunday school lesson and that 86%. 86% keeps bouncing around. I would say today has been pretty ordinary. Have I been thankful today? Hmm, not as much as I could be, if at all.
    I was thankful yesterday, though. I'm not saying that in a prideful way, or in a way to point you out if you weren't. I just know that I felt confident in the Lord that He would give the election to Romney. I was sure of it. Well, the Lord did not give the election to Romney, and I wasn't nearly as depressed, sad, or maybe even angry that I think I might have been. That Sun. school lesson really helped. I basically shrugged my shoulders and said, "Okay God, that's Your will. What's next?" I'm not sure if people think that sounds ignorant and like-a-teenager, but that's how I felt.

     Well, I was going to write about Nano, but you guys are probably tired of reading. And, I'm really hungry. It's 1, and I haven't eaten lunch. So, I shall save all the Nano stuff for another post that hopefully will get written before December.
     Oh, I shall also be posting the prologue to my novel up here. :D Please, please, puh-lease comment and tell me what you think of it. Even if you don't like it, I'd love your comments.

Today

Friday, October 26, 2012
So much has happened today of worth that facebook was insuffient to write it all down. Well, this morning, everything started off really well with the drop in temperature. How can you go outside on a morning so brisk in a bad mood? Yes, it's easy; I know. But today, I was happy. :) I was wearing my pair of skinny jeans which I am unafraid to post about loving, my purple "converse," and a scarf. On top of that, I had an Upside Down Caramel Macciado (sp?) from Starbucks as I walked into class. In class, I got the highest test grade I've gotten in that class, and I was super ecstatic about it! :D
Now for the ride home. Oh, I must preface this story by letting you know one thing. Most of the road I traverse while going to and from school is all one lane....yeah, you know where this is going. Anyway, I asked to drive since I hadn't driven to school this morning. I turned onto this one road and had to slow way down because there was this silver truck totally putzing. Sighing, I slowed down and then Mom noticed that a gold van was in front of the silver truck and was the putzing culprit. We were in a 30 mph zone (where everybody goes *at least* 35 if not 40) and I was driving at 17 mph. I was really frustrated. Well, the truck took a quick chance and zoomed out illegally to pass the van. Mom made sure to tell me I was not going to be doing that. Haha! So, I had to wait. I nearly reached the point of ferocious road rage...ok, not really, but you get the idea. I mean, this is what they teach you in driving school to NOT do!
Something that perked me up after that was the knowledge that Mom had bought me two plain Panera bagels. Yummy! Yummy! Yes, that made me happy. Upon arriving home, I released my tension by putting Josh Groban on and making myself a bagel and cream cheese. Now, as I write this, I'm munching on my bagel with cream cheese, and You Are Loved (Don't Give Up) is playing in the background.
Happier and no longer frustrated with incompetent drivers as well as fed, I have math homework in my sights with some English research and chores.
Have a good day! :D

"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift. That is why it is called the present."
--Kung Fun Panda

Bibbidi Bobbidi Boo!

Wednesday, October 24, 2012
I've reached a new stage in my life. I've carved a pumpkin. There's just something about shaping a vegetable into a predetermined object that elevates you to a new level of consciousness. Haha! No, I'm just kidding. But it was fun. Let me tell you the story. :)
At my community college, they were having this event of pumpkin carving. Several booths were set up with huge tubs of pumpkins. You could carve your pumpkin, paint it, stick feathers and glitter all over it, and more. I originally wasn't going to go, but one of my friends was working the event. That got me thinking, and then I realized that I might never actually get around to carving a pumpkin ever again. So, I went. 
I knew immediately what I wanted to do. I wanted to carve my pumpkin into Cinderella's carriage. Fitting, right? Probably not super original, but still. 
I found a good size pumpkin, signed a release form (basically if I chopped off a finger, I couldn't sue), and got to hacking. I poked holes all around the stem, but had to get a nearby guy to yank it out...he broke off the stem. Hahaahahaha! We got the top of eventually, though. Then, I put on the plastic gloves and relieved my pumpkin of it's inner gunk.
Paint time! There was a station for spray paint and I headed over there. After sifting through quite a few empty cans, I found a silver one. It was my first time spray painting, and it was fun. Then, I hit the carving station. They had these little knives and then these tiny, thin--thin like toothpicks--metal things that had serrated edges. I didn't think the toothpicks would hold up, so I started using the knife...but it kept cutting on a rounded edge. Rather frustrating. I picked up the toothpick saw and went to work. It cut through that pumpkin skin like crazy. I did end up breaking one off at the handle, but they had extras. 
So, now my carriage was starting to take shape. Last top was the paintbrush-paint station. That's where I added the wheels, vines, and curtains. If you remember, there are pink curtains in the carriage. I tried to represent them properly. :D
I had a lot of fun and am quite proud of my creation. It's been sitting in the kitchen since I brought it home and is now growing mold. The top is sinking through the hole; the inside is turning brown. And then of course, there are the little fuzzy patches that are starting to appear. Still, I really like it, and am proud of my first attempt to turn a vegetable into a predetermined object. :D You should go out and try it too! And don't forget the spray paint! 

Pictures from all sides reside below. Let me know what you think! 






Twiddling My Toes

Thursday, October 18, 2012
It's been a slow day. I woke up at 5:11 this morning, hacking and hacking. Then, I was unable to go back to sleep. I've been tired all day because of this, and I haven't been able to muster much energy or ambition. So, I'm sitting downstairs right now, with my feet propped up on our coffee table, wiggling my toes back and forth to a nice pulsating rhythm.

I have managed to do a few things lately. I've decorated the house for fall, something I've been wanting to do for awhile. Mom and I went to the store, and I got a pumpkin and some gourds and some dried corn. It looks quite autumnal in here, but the "sage-ey" smell pumping out from Mom's air-freshener/diffuser is messing with the whole thing. It's supposed to smell like lilac and rosemary, but it's just coming out sage.

I'm still gearing up for Nano. In other words, getting more nervous. Thanks to a post from a Nano user and the brilliance of Kathryn (and a little genius of my own-haha) I've finally nailed down the end of my novel. I'm very sad, because it will be very sad. One character which you're supposed to like from the beginning and which I liked from the moment I created him is going to turn out to be a coward and pretty pathetic. :( And, other characters will turn out to be heartless. It's all very depressing, very fitting for the novel's overall aura, but still depressing. And you know I'm the "happy-ending" kind of person. Still, I know it's going to be a very good end, and I'm pretty sure I can write it successfully.

I've been working on a secret project for awhile now; it's a labor of love, really. It's been a bit challenging/ frustrating at times, but it's been a lot of fun. I worked on more of it today, and it will soon be finished. When it's done and is no longer a secret, I shall post some pictures. Anyway, I just felt like sharing that I really have enjoyed working on this project because of the fact that it is a labor of love. Aren't those just the best?

I shall leave you with a random quote today as I continue to twiddle my toes over here. It's from the movie National Treasure between Ben and Riley.

Riley: "This is huge...*prison* huge. You are gonna go to prison."
Ben: "Yeah, probably."
Riley: "That would...bother most people."

Fitting In

Sunday, October 14, 2012
You fold yourself up.
Pull up the sides,
And bind them with tape.
Next comes the lid.
You forcefully pull it down.

You're in the dark,
Helpless and hopeless.
Why did you do this?
What was the point?
You don't remember.

It's getting close.
It's getting hot.
You're can't breath.
Suffocation.
You have to get out now!

You push at the lid,
But you fastened it to tightly,
Trying to ensure
It would never come off.
You put yourself here.

There's very little time left
For you to save yourself.
Soon, you'll be lost
Forever in the dark,
Helpless, hopeless.

You push once more at the lid, at the walls.
It's a last effort.
One final attempt to save yourself,
To remain alive,
To remain you.

The walls are weakening.
It seems you didn't bind them
As firmly as you thought.
You can still come out of this.
You can still be free.

The tape releases.
The walls fall down.
The lid is off.
Air rushes in, up, around you.
There is light!

Freedom!
It's never felt so wonderful!
Never to be taken for granted again.
You are saved.
You are still you.

Daily Joy/Daily Chore

Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Random inspiration for another poem.

Bubbles, Froth
Streaming, Swirling
Back and Forth
Back and Forth
Submerge
Emerge
Pat, pat, pat
Ahhhhhh